This condition breaking my head,
spitting things out of hell,
splitting my mind all the way to madness,

is telling I am going astray,
that I should really spread care,
that I don't owe anyone a shit,

since I have an emptiness inside me,
and at the same time I feel I have too much,
dependent of a kind of psycho treatment,

an urge to obey and be obeyed,
to control and to be a serf,
duality in the form of incarnated denial,

I want to be amiss,
I want to be missed,
I want to be hit,
I want to be filled,

and I want to be drained
I want to be nice,
I want to be grim,
I want to be boot

and I want to be fist,
I want to be erased
I want to exist,
I want to be crystal,

I want to be mist,
I want to be good,
I want to be mean,
I want to be a saint,

and I want to be wicked,
I want to be pain,
I want to be bliss,
I want to be torment,

I want to relieve,
I want to be cheer,
I want to be grief,
I want to be misery,

I want to be ease,
I want to be acclaimed,
I want to be blamed,
I want to be pleasure,

I want to be twinge,
I want to be blitz,
I want to be peace,
I want to be kissed,
and I want to be killed,
kissed and killed.

I want to be kissed and killed,
I want to be kissed and killed,
I want to be kissed and killed,

I want to become an angel of death,
I want to get to be a demon of life,
dreaming while awake,
alert while asleep,
one eye shaded with day,
the other shines with night,

I want to be askew,
I want it all out,
I want it within,
I want to be hated,

I want to be wished,
I want to end all,
I want to begin,
I want to be broken,

I want to be fixed,
I want to be expelled,
I want to be pinned,
I want to be weakness,

I want to be will,
I want to be left,
I want to be picked,
I want to be virtue,

I want to be sin,
I want to be brain,
I want to be skin,
I want to be bitter,

I want to be sweet,
I want to get out,
I want to be in,
I want to be strong

and I want to be sick,
I want to be pure,
I want to be mixed,
I want to be beaten,

I want to defeat,
I want to be a slave,
I want to be free,
I want to be kissed,
and killed.

I want to be kissed and killed,
I want to be kissed and killed,
I want to be kissed and killed,
I want to be kissed and killed,

I should break my ears with silence,
I should cure them back with loudness,
I should reward you with my greed,
I should pay you like a thief,

my spirit's breaking in two and my perceptions too,
alienation is becoming way stronger,
the truth of lies is shown like a blow,
inside my skull and beyond,
as this dementia breaks up my soul!

I want to be amiss,
I want to be missed,
I want to be hit,
I want to be filled,

and I want to be drained
I want to be nice,
I want to be grim,
I want to be boot

and I want to be fist,
I want to be erased
I want to exist,
I want to be crystal,

I want to be mist,
I want to be good,
I want to be mean,
I want to be a saint,

and I want to be sin,
I want to be brain,
I want to be skin,
I want to be bitter,

I want to be sweet,
I want to get out,
I want to be in,
I want to be strong

and I want to be sick,
I want to be pure,
I want to be mixed,
I want to be beaten,

I want to defeat,
I want to be a slave,
I want to be free,
I want to be kissed,
and I want to be killed

I want to be kissed and killed,
I want to be kissed and killed,

Kissed and killed.